Dear-o

my very last post of 2010. She is K :) im truly blessed having her as my best friend and sister too. Although at first i thought different school will limit our friendship, its not. Now, she is in Sydney and still our friendship is just stronger. i love you,k! happy new year to all gulalister :D new year, new beginning.

 ♥,

-Michelly Ramli

Super kiddos.

(kaira, rangga, darren,

 darryl, bryan, andrew, jordan 

dj, shen-shen,talita, joy,angelene)

(joy, kaira, jordan)

These are the super kiddos i have been talking before! they are all from grade 1 from the same school as mine and guess what, i have this opportunity to assist the mandarin teacher every Saturday in their class. i should say this is one of the epic moment of my entire life! i always love dealing with kids, especially when i see their passion for mandarin. yes, the school divides the languange class into bahasa and mandarin, so they are the super mandarin kiddos! someone told me before that the children smiles able to heal the broken soul, its true. they don't act only to color my Saturday but my life. Fight strongly kiddos! I always know that you guys can do good for Indonesia.

 ♥,

-Michelly Ramli

good job,C!

either life is colored with pink or grey, its our very own choice to take it as a challenges or simply just a chance to keep us moving backward. This very amazing yet meaningful year of 2010 of mine can be catergorized as the most complex year of my life. but, u know what, i made it!

1.science stream or regular stream

this is one of the epic point of my life where i prayed to Father asking for His multi guidance upon my junior year. God knows till this point i have no idea about my major but He guides me through semester one of this jungle life. i know i didnt make an A for science but by faith, seriously i walk by faith in Him that i just need to do my best. ask myself, i never know how can i survive to stand among those science people, they are too brilliant --" but hey! i have faith in Him and surely i can do all things through Christ who strengthen me.

2.sports day-yellow team

that moment is like forever forever stored in my mind! yellow team is my second team after green team on my sophomore year. but for yellow, the whole team is too solid that we work till death not to win only but united we stand as yellowers :D the moment of playing in the rains till my sports day tee turns yellow. the whole hair got wet, the cheering moment with karen and olivia, the futsal, the basketball and everything. awesome team ever! really thank God for having such a mighty like (tahan banting) leaders like troy and karen. ditto to both of you! long life yellow-ers. xoxoxo

3.performing arts-king arthur

yeah yeah being one of the laker girls sounds a bit ew ew ew at first, the dance is like super weirdo. the make up and the hairdo is pathetic too green but i truly enjoy the moment of cheering for Arthur and His knights :P especially when the knights are like yahhh u know... although the it day of arthur and sports day is like almost the same, well again i made it :D 

4.summer girls in sg

yes! the sweet getaway with dea and priscilla to singapore. three of us are no longer in the same school and that moment is priceless. the shopping moment is uncomparable, obviously when u shop with shopaholic like Dea. the moment when three of us are like speechless when we want to buy bak pao *grin* because none speak mandarin fluently. the running for the plane because of late check out. universal studio too! we ride the mummies for 3x yet not enough. i love my summer girls.

5.first tanning in hongkong

pathetic tanning, i know summer should be about sun but i didnt mean to burn my skin to brownish like this. blah i havent recover my white skin yet till this point :( but, oh yeah to the shopping in Hongkong! i score too much good things in reasonable price of course. get some lose some,huh? i will surely return there next spring break. oh yeah eah eah.

6.good friends stay forever

i have my first un-cat fight with t, jakarta-la but above all we are all back to good friends now. better friendship after the fight because we end up understand more of each other, distance should never be the reason to obliterate our strong bond of friendship. K also left for Sydney by spring, our last meet up is the time when we devour haagen dasz's foundue :)) thanks to skype that we still yeah talk and chat. imy,k! and she just turned 16 the last two days. having D not in msa is tough time for me, its something new that i need to conquer the jungle without her but both us made proves that distance and our all kind of business wont be the border for strong friendship. moreover, it is the distance with all my good darlings that make a stronger friendship indeed. thank you t,k, and d.

7.the same old problem- trust

remember the last four-five years ago version of me when i put trust to all kind of people until one point where someone i trust most dissapoint me. done. totally done. that is the point where i start to be picky on people, i am sadly turns into skeptic being. i can't put trust on new people and somehow it comes to ins now. i want to trust ins but something is pulling me backwards not to. all i can do now is belive it. faith and hope. thats the key to foreverland.

8.hello to fujifilm instax

i am soon to upload pictures from my own instax wide, oh yes baby! i got one from Santa. see i told you, i am being one good girl this year. i shall name her Princy. still,i need to experiment more with my canon, been too long i didnt touch it.

9.kiddos and kiddos

children from class room to road side, i love them. once i see their eyes, i know God has an amazing plan and purpose in every single of their unique soul. some has the privelege to go green and red for xmas attire while some just need a pair of sandals for life. some has the privelege to enjoy great meals every lunch where some just need to work to get their own. both kinds, they need our love. both kind, they are huggable. stay strong, princes and princesses, i will soon see u guys growing up ready to bring changes for this nation.

10.the year of multiplication is about to come

the crystal clear message from Him that 2011 will be served with multi blessings upon His people which means higher level of challenges is about to land too. the bible says that God wil never test us beyond our capabilities. seriously saying to myself to stop comparing myself to others. He has created personalized plan for every single of us and so what of others? focuss on our own path, we are born to be a winner, aren't we? :)

welcome 2011 with ♥,

-Michelly Ramli

hey world

(image courtesy of axioo.)

Here is the impact when my mind is shaped to write journals every week, I just have the tendency to type. Therefore, I am about to tell you what is on my mind, right now, this very moment:

I want to see the world. One point that really motivates me to learn languages because I want to see the world. The next point why I decided my own to get my further studies not in Indonesia, I want to study their culture. Not through books, not through google, not through images or youtube but my own eyes be the witness. Although my decision is fixed to go overseas after my senior years, I still have no idea where to go and worst, what major to take. I am still considering Beijing, Shanghai and Singapore, yet I am still so-very-dumbo-o in mandarin. My mother doesn’t allow me to go out of Asia until I got my bachelor degree which means, States and UK is a big no. Singapore, I pay less interest too these days, no big difference with Jakarta, just a cleaner version I guess (ugly truth). For now, I am still working on for university in Shanghai or Beijing. Practically, they have four seasons there and hello-o-o to all kind of glorious winter coats. Super insane that I think more of the city and not the educational issue but come on seriously, I told you I want to see the world. I want summer, spring, autumn and winter. We will be friend soon and right after my degree, i will have someone accompany me to see the wonders of the world. The very soon.

♥,

-Michelly Ramli

Foreverland

♥,

-Michelly Ramli

Cherish

images courtesy of @febeliem

Just in the time that exam is over, here comes the christmas celebration. a time to cherish one another with a smile along with a little goodies. Having friends by our side is one of the greatest christmas' blessings of the year. They stand by us through thick and thin of life, through the smooth or even the tough side of our life. just in time when my junior year, semester one is over. mission accomplished! my three two super girls, josie and febe, they always made my school year amazing! Josie is the one with black dress while Febe is the center. ily guys like whoa. stay sweet and awesome! :)

♥,

-Michelly Ramli

I believe

There's a place out there for us
More than just a prayer or anything we ever dreamed of.
So if you feel like giving up
Cause you don't fit in down here
Fear is crashing in close your eyes and take my hand.

We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe.
It's written in the stars that shine above
A world where you and I belong
Where faith and love will keep us strong
Exactly who we are is just enough
Yes there's a place for us there's a place for us.

When the water meets the sky
Where your heart is free and hope comes back to life
Where these broken hands are whole again
We will find what we've been waiting for
We were made for so much more

We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe.
It's written in the stars that shine above
A world where you and I belong
Where faith and love will keep us strong
Exactly who we are is just enough
Yes there's a place for us
Now there's a place for us

So hold on now hold on
There's a place for us

We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe.
It's written in the stars that shine above
A world where you and I belong
Where faith and love will keep us strong
Exactly who we are is just enough
Exactly who we are is just enough
There's a place for us

spray it away

(L'eauPar by Kenzo)

(Chloe)

(Amour Florale by Kenzo)

   (Lola by Marc Jacobs)

(Daisy by Marc Jacobs)

(Twirl by Kate Spade)

keep it silent

"The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected." 

— Nicholas Sparks

Sugar coated lies

Ken broke up with Barbie whom actually set up only by recorded tape, Barbie fired up from the show, and Barbie decided to fly over to Paris to meet her aunt. Ken realized that Barbie is nowhere to be found and heard the entire dark plan behind; Ken decided to ask for forgiveness not virtually but face to face. Ken planned for romantic gestures along with his apologize. Unfortunately cancelled flight due to the weather, Ken not succumb that easy, he choose to go by land not air. At the end, Ken met Barbie and they live happily ever after.

This is what the media offers, unrealistic standard. Remember that the market for Barbie movie is not for adult but children. The media wants to plant the seed of the human’s standard based on Barbie’s life. The media convinces that one day we all will have our very own romantic moment with our prince and the romantic moment is measured when our princes fly across continents to meet us. If the princes do not come over, that is not romantic and thus they are not worthy to receive a ‘yes’ after apologize. Long story short, these are all stand as pretty little lies.

Ugly truth, we all fall easily on the lies. The lies that is appealing to our life, the lies that indirectly shape our paradigm about relationship. But exactly what is it about the healthy relationship? Does it really all about what the media draws? The broken hearted, the new guy out of nowhere appeared in the middle of the vacation, the bumping moment in the airport, the enemy who turns out to be the soul mate. Are those the entire basic standard how to begin a relationship? Does it mean that we need to make those entire romantic standards happen in our life in order to meet the destined loved one? No, God says that the healthy relationship will be strong when we build it based on His words and learn how to wait. God wants us to be faithful with Him first, although we may be crying to Him, demand Him to send the loved one for our life right now, but what God wants is learn to be faithful with Him then we are guarantee will be faithful with humans.

God’s standard of relationship is measured once we are able to stay faithful with Him. The bible says that everything will be good in His time. God wants our undivided attentions now. Listen to His words, live to glorify His kingdom and reach that magnificent purpose in our life. It is only according to our Father that we will not go with the lies that the world introduced. We are all surrounded with lies: the television shows, the books, the songs and peer pressures. How can we survive with all these during our crucial adolescent year? Today’s soap opera throws most conflict on love story, the teen’s novel vividly lead our imagination to another relationship issue, the song acts as the sharpener to lead our emotion swing here and there. The epic lies when we walk around the mall on weekend, are we dare enough to stand as minority having no boyfriends at this age? The lies that keep on pulling us out from God’s zone and follow the earth. Do not stand as minority that is what the world screams. Teenage life is only once; it is not sinful enough to take relationship as a game? As long as it does not involve any adultery, we are not committing sin. The world throws all ideas for us to rationalize that having relationship at our teenage year is fun and worth to try.

Ask yourself; ask myself, do the media ever capture the downside of the relationship at this immature age? As far as we can remember, the media only showed partial truth about the relationship. We may never know how the teenagers failed on their studies; kicked out from the school, rejected by the family, homeless, and at the end will they still stay together? At the point where we all should focus on our academic degree with one clear goal to work on our purpose of life but we choose to abandoned it for the sake of relationship because the media says everything will work.

What the media try to serve us that relationship can be built as early as possible; it is just sugar coated lies. Let us learn to practice our faithfulness on God first. God never forget us, which are crystal clear of how His covenant is living yet until today. For God’s covenant about the coming of Jesus is real, what more about our life?  Our partners in life will be part of our blessings but we need to wait and wait, the higher the value of blessings, the higher the value of the challenges. The longer we wait; we are surely will get the masterpiece of His multi blessings. 

♥,

-Michelly Ramli

the very soon

Im just listening to the clock go ticking
I am waiting as the time goes by
I think of you with every breath I take
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine

Youre all I see
In everything

I just want to hold you
I just want to kiss you
I just want to love you all my life
I normally wouldnt say this
But I just cant contain it
I want you here forever, right here
By my side

All the fears you feel inside
And all the tears youve cried
Theyre ending right here
Ill heal your heart and soul
Ill keep you oh so close
Dont worry Ill never let you go

Youre all I need
Youre everything

I just want to hold you
I just want to kiss you
I just want to love you all my life
I normally wouldnt say this
But I just cant contain it
I want you here forever, right here
By my side

No one else would ever do
I got a stubborn heart for you
Call me crazy but its true
I love you
I didnt think that it would be
You who made it clear to me
Youre all I need

I just want to hold you
I just want to kiss you
I just want to love you all my life
I normally wouldnt say this
But I just cant contain it
I want you here forever, right here
By my side

Imy.

Shanghai,2010. 

C for casual

never get enough of one!

(images courtesy of  cottonink)

♥

-Michelly Ramli

thou shall be mine.

my beloved msa girls <3

(josie,febe,mikha,hasianti,me)

1st row: troy,mikha,anti,carol,ariel

2nd row: me,josie,febe

Got a time to snap some by febe's fuji instax mini. Lord, please get me one as part of the Christmas gifts. Oh i am so ready for xmas :)) who's not?

♥,

-Michelly Ramli

One Wonder

One song inspires my soul-challenging week by Newsong. Thanks to my beloved pretty buddy to introduce me. Although it says “it’s a marriage song” well, I don’t think so. For my case, it is way another scene of life. Enjoy. 

♥ one who is learning to trust others,

-Michelly Ramli

one step at a time

images courtesy of herecomesthesun

"Ask Him to teach you how to love, how to trust, and how to give." 

another midnight post, its saturday already. i still have two classes to attend tomorrow yet i cant resist more but to type. things about life have been unpredictable in both positive and negative ways. God really speaks through many subjects of my life; it can be from my reading assignment or even just a simple email from a friend. Below is part of my revelation.

I cried to myself after I realize all these times, i simply veiled myself just like Orual in “till we have face” by C.S. Lewis.  I closed my heart, I limit myself only to people I really trust back then and now when they are all gone for overseas studies; I have no one. Physically, I am not alone but the soul within me cries for companion. This is nothing to do with my family life, everything is splendid with my family yet there is one missing puzzle of friendship. Closing my heart is the only reasonable answer for why all these times God has not hand me more people whom I can lean on. It is not the matter God does not provide me one but I miss to see the blessings of them. I simply do not want to get hurt by putting my trust on new people. Get disappointed or vice versa, that is insane. I do not want to let that happen but on the same time I disappoint more lovely fellows around me. Insane. Pathetic. I fully agree.

Although people might say God’s answer might never be visible, sometimes it moves by heart or best thing by His words. But this time, in my case, God truly leading me until the ‘starting’ point of the race. I can’t let go of another blessings in my life. No, I do not want to. Period. Thus, this very second I declare I open my heart for new people of my life. The only answer to love and trust them is through Him.  Just like how Orual describes by Mr.Lewis that it is not the matter the gods does not want to show clear way of all the problems but Orual herself hides her face, how can the gods speak to her life?

♥ with a smile of relief,

-Michelly Ramli

flicker like a butterfly

at the end of my school day I will realize that life is more than just striving for a heavenly gpa and cum laude. it is not the matter of how much you score on literature and physics. it is not how many extra curricular activites you in charge. it is not the matter you are senior or junior that you can start to bully. it is not the matter of 'the clique' or 'the it girls'. it is not the matter of how cool is your boyfriend or girlfriend or even the matter of having one. it is obviously more than that. the values that i can learn from school life is more to life changing experience. i try my best to balance it, no way im forcing my body and soul to get tense about works. well, i am doing the very best of my own with His multi mercies on me.


Hand written journals per week, homeworks after homeworks, essay and that bloody calculation of mathematics. oh goodness, i am freaking out of it. Lets make it balance, i spend enough time on school works and yet got an opportunity with magazines and articles. Hey, come on, school life is amazing, I want to treasure it for the rest of my life. don't get too tense and relax.


 the no-more-making-myself-stress out gulalist ♥
 -Michelly Ramli

I thank Thee.

Sunday already, its morning here, to be exact early morning. I got no one to talk to since everyone is asleep already. But still, i wanna share my very own joy about yesterday (just a few hours ago). I received the report card of my sophomore year. yes, it is, the result of all my hard work on my hand. I cant believe it, im promoted to year 11 as junior now. wow, i feel like its just my first year in msa and bam... my officially junior now.


number of my gpa is prohibited here, pretty one but i know i can work harder. of all four semester i spend in msa, this semester gpa is the highest. so yeah, today sunday which mean church! im super cant wait to sing my thanks to Lord! above is picture someone took during 'the gathering' (mind my bulky hand plus so round face)


message to myself: u can do it, michy! no matter how hard the task will be. just like someone told me, u can excel it! Summer is soon over, next week will be camp and get ready for another attractions from msa and surroundings =)

♥,

-Michelly Ramli

faithful gathering.

Got an opportunity to meet all my besties in one package. What can I say, good fellow, good food, good talks and yes, we are good girls. Whereas the randomness of the day that Glee's faithfully song keep running on my mind. Just another flashback I got about things happen a month ago. I won't declare this in public but let me say this...

Highway run into the midnight sun 

Wheels go round and round 

You're on my mind 

Restless hearts sleep alone tonight 

Sending all my love along the wire 

Dea, one of the fashion guru.

The nikon users, Hasianti.

Dea and Priscilla, my girls in travelling (update soon)

michelle,me,amadea,priscilla,kimbely,hasianti

The fact that all of us are msa students, no more. Three of my beloved buddies are out and ready with their own destiny to continue their study out of msa. Surely, we stay together still.

♥,

-michelly