Of Dreams and Believing It

Dream.

Semua orang pasti punya mimpi. Yes, it includes me. Aku memulai mimpi yang satu ini sejak tahun 2013. Sejenak aku berpikir ini semua tidak mungkin karena jelas-jelas di tahun 2012, my university application on this related major just got rejected. Ok, I shall stop. Mungkin ini memang bukan buat aku. But why not mencoba lagi?

Di tahun 2013, mimpi ini mulai gets another butterfly on my stomach dan berlanjut ke tahun 2014 ketika this particular one city holds part of my heart. I keep on scribbling on my note: I left my heart in this city. Yes, it was all just a dream. Part of me knows this is pretty impossible. Di tahun 2015, purely dengan tekad berani maju basically hanya dengan iman dan His strength, I did apply to for my master degree in one of the universities in this city. Long story short, I got waived for the application fee, submitted all the necessary documents and endless essays. Hati masih berkata, ini gak mungkin.

Only by His grace, aku mencapai mimpi ini pada tahun 2016.

Bermimpi itu gak gampang, percaya bahwa kamu bisa mencapai mimpi itu juga gak gampang. Aku yakin kita semua punya mimpi. Have courage and yes, please don’t give up.

Of the spring thoughts

Been teased whenever I told my dad “dad I wanna be home. Kangen.” Then he will say, begitu pulang pasti kangen Beijing so enjoy your day there lah. Well its spring, this Jing city is getting prettier each day with flower blooming and greens at last instead of brown. Did my wardrobe switch from fall autumn to spring summer already and guess what without I am realizing… It might be my last couple of months breathing in this polluted land.

Honestly speaking it has been months full of adjustments. For the first time I actually lived outside of campus. Living one flat with the locals, yes you hear me right darlings. For the first time *tears* I landed into my first full time job. New routes, new subway lines which also means no more familiar faces of ayi who sell qianping and jiaozhi. But it has been a journey filled with daily surprises for me. I learnt, even when I do scanning job in the office or taking the wrong subway line.

I have learnt to stay faithful even during the time of hardships and puzzlements. To always stay faithful in little things and that’s what spring whispered to me.